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Motherhood: Learning From The Clouds

 

Most children look to the clouds and see angels, dragons, dolphins, or cars! Just about anything that they see on the ground can be seen in the clouds – but not my little man!

 

Look to the clouds – Quote by Forrest:

“You see that up there, in the clouds, that’s me holding my little brother and sister’s hands!”

 

I look over at Carl and both of our eyes well up with tears.

Well, this wasn’t in the parenthood manual!  (By the way, if you find that manual let me know I would like to purchase it.)

What do we do or even say!?!  This is not what I expected.  This is not how my life was designed in my mind!  We do everything that we can to give Forrest everything that he needs,  wants and deserves.  But I cannot give him a brother or sister.  It is just not possible – I wish it were possible, but it is not.

But wait….. Forrest is not sad!  He is excited that he gets to be in the clouds with his brother and sister.

 

As I think back to this moment in time, I am somber and even bitter.  But yet, my heart is so crammed full with warm fuzzies too!

What the hell did we do right!?!

And what the hell is going on up in those clouds!

I think he is on to something.  What is the view like up there?  In the clouds you can do anything!  How courageous of him.  He is happy there.  How many of us just hang out here on earth with our heads in the sand or even look to the sky and don’t see a thing?  I want to go where my imagination can be free.   Where no one is saying, “be realistic”.  As we get older we lose all of that.   That day I learned  from Forrest!  Is there some sort of chapter in this parenthood manual that tells you about the things your own child will teach you while looking at clouds?  Cause that would be a friggin’ amazing chapter!

 

I am learning to look to the clouds while still having my feet on the ground .  Thanks Forrest!!!

 

 

 

Design on, in this beautifully undesigned life,

Kari

 

 

6 Comments

  • Suzie

    July 19, 2017

    I love you Kari. I love you Forrest. I love you Carl. I really really love you xoxo

    • LiddicoatDesigns

      July 20, 2017

      Love you too!

  • Jean Kendall

    July 19, 2017

    What a beautiful story. I hope his outlook that is so simple will help you through the grief and pain.

    • LiddicoatDesigns

      July 20, 2017

      Thank you!

  • Erin

    July 20, 2017

    You are amazing. I love your blog.

    • LiddicoatDesigns

      July 20, 2017

      Thanks for your support – always!

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